is must have been amour??..

Is this what they've coined as the magic of amour?.. bounteously, I'm still holdin back. I could cognize and fondle this aura is growing deep within. Does this need to drop or to actify a new beginning.

Let me accustom this tellurian im enamored to. HmMMmm, first

of there are NO entanglement or what so ever, so it is safe!.. But its too risky to be involve the fact that individually are abstracted. Oh yeah I admit, he is substantial. I could get along with him or even blend in to his mindset. Hmmm, and maybe we had some common denominators, common interests even the attitude of laziness.XD Thoughts keep flowing at the backof my head, im so afraid to comit another mistake. But thats love. Its perilious. You need to take some risks. You need to be tough and be bright to survive.

The question is. Does this chum savors the same odd feelin'? Is he ready for a new beginning?

Weird feelings come rushin' into my physique, anticipating and seting aside the negative feedback I've acquired.

Em juz so vulnerable dunno where to start.

People say it takes two in a TANGO, but how was that suppose to mean when everything surpasses us is time limiting.

Ahh this must be what its like when your crazy!

Hello and OMG!.. An actual blog from me, something good must have happened for me to be once again writing...or something highly disturbing. But on with it I say and so here goes fingers to keys and let the key pressing begin..

Things have been abit hectic around here and as i struggle to find time to do anything something pops up which is instantly put into a high priority status, and now em not complaining or anything but as of late somethings come over me.. No em not ill or anything, well at least I don't think I am.
Not much is new though, same old stuff, just a different boring day lol, filled with interesting thoughts and loud music...right...ive been hitting dance events so yeah...loyd music comes with that..
Anyway hit me up when you get the chance, but thats if people still read this, but until the next time, have fun and take care.

Ei HoLD uP.. WHAT WAS THAT?.. ERRrR..

Ahhh its been awhile and too long at that, but here it is, another entry into events that seem to disturb me emotionally, i shouldnt be writitng this stuff as em prob being looked at or something, who knows huh? anyway here we go so if your not already sitting please do take a seat and get yourself comfortable...lets go, where to start? hahaha so lost but thats just me requiring a map, its just funny how sometimes little actions kick off something you cant stop and have no control over, I dislike being who i am at the moment, em well angry at myself so my general mood is slowly turning for the worst once more, we all have our ups and downs but this is too much, I have felt ergh pathetic in the past but now this is something new, i feel small, insignificant and alone, my voice isnt being heard partly due to the fact that em struggling to find the words and also when i do find them theyre out of place and have no relevance to what was being said prior to me having opened up, thats all nice and well and it happens but just the fact that I dont seem to be able to cope with something, last nite i was scared for my own safety, i had a strange feeling i was going to get into a lot of trouble real quick for something i did not do or start, i guess just me being there upset afew people, ahh sucks soo bad, but ultimately i did not manage to do what i set out to do because its not conventional, i have thought it through and em in a postion where i can lose alot more than i could gain so its best i sit down shut up and pretend all is well, prob should think about closing my eyes too, it all just gets to me and this month, well last month too i have been struggling to stay focused and on top, I was doing great prior to the whole ordeal but now like I said em struggling to gather my composure, working hard to put everything together and gain hold of who i em and not continue to be distracted, maybe my purpose here in this life is to act as someone on the recieveing end of peoples unhappines so they offload shit onto me to ultimately feel better about themselves, maybe...i shall ponder this some more and if it all makes sense well, we can fix all this.. maybe i nid to take a rest and breathe into a fresh air agen.. usin' this crappy odd paper to move destinations.. XD

hollaback, gypsy gurL wud be outtah headin' to another place in time XD..

BeSt YaYa yUL ever have...

oLa senyora y senyor.. ehehe.. i haven't posted any entry for the past few days coz' of LAZiNESS.. lol.. so ir em i infront of mah LCD agen.. tryin to jott down things i wanna blog.. and *puff* an idea came along.. i saw this pic with mah yaya Ely on mah cam.. XD

Hey em juz missin them so much :'(..
Due to mah stay ir in manila.. cant bring yaya Ely wid me cause she's assigned to work and even guide mah 2 brothers back home to pangasinan.. huhuhu..


juz a tribute to mah yaya Ely.. she's so nice and bubbly all the time.. its been 9 years she's still wid us and havin some patience wid the attitude of mah two rediculous brothers.. em so happy she's enduring our insanity for sometimes.. lol.. she had witnessed alot of mah happenings in life.. my dramas, flaws and even some of mah embarassin' moments.. sometimes, she'll bought some stuffs for me, even if its not costly, the thouhgt persue means alot to me.. XD
okay i admit.. there are times that she's annoying but it compliments all the stuff she had done for us.. there are no dull moments wid her.. i really mean that one.. hahaha.. she'll laugh all things even if she doesn't understand..

Patience is a V I R T U E..

howdy yah all people?.. if yuL gonna ask how am i?.. fuckinly tired!!..
juz went through a tiring registration and membership application foh mah profession as a registered nurse foh da past two days..

first day [registration foh mah license @ PRC main]
the crowds are humongous.. prc main was dominated by a population of a newly registered nurses who were scheduled for a registration and i was one of them.. XD
its really tiring.. and em sick and tired lining up..

lines.. lines.. and another lines.. haizt..

second day [membership for PNA]
dis is a sacrifice ever.. i sleep over mah friend's pad just to reach PNA on time.. geez, tanx to jhamere, they welcomed me in their unit with arms wide open.. XD..
mah clock striked 2:00am.. i snoozed it.. 2:30am *alarm* and i snoozed it again.. lol..
em still tired from PRC's registration thingy then here it goes again another bugging moment..
3:00am *alarm* and jhomz fully wake me up.. XD.. i rushed bathin' and dressin up..
then jhomz accompanied me goin to mini stop to buy some refreshments.. after that jhomz got me a cab..


when i reached PNA.. i was shocked because there was a line already infront of the gate though its just like 3:30am.. whattaheck!!... lines starts to grow until it circumnavigate the parameter of PNA.. lol.. thats alot.. XD.. we were entertained by 8:00am.. haizt, so if yu really dont have some of the so called PATIENCE then yu wont survive this event.. luckily, i still have.. XD

la rupture de mon coeur .. XD

comment puis-je reparer un cœur brise?..mon monde entier a echoue.
comment puis-je trouver de l'espoir d'un jour nouveau, quand celui que l'amour a disparu?
mon esprit deborde de souvenirs de vous, de tout ce que nous avons partagé, tout ce que nous savions..j'attends vos contact et votre étreinte chaleureuse, le regard dans tes yeux, le sourire sur votre visage.. mes reves sont remplis de votre doux baiser doux, je me réveille et je crie tout ce qui me manque.. comment puis-je reparer un cœur brise, quand mon seul veritable amour et moi nous sommes separes?.. mon cœur sait aimer que toi, il va pas lacher, que dois-je faire?.. nos moments ensemble etaient precieux et rares, mais je chéris eux tous plus que vous ne le savait.. je t'aime mon ange et sera toujours,
mais cela a change, vous êtes juste un souvenir et je tombe a quelqu'un d'autre.. XD
au revoir, jus que-la!!.. ahahay..

Shortees or Longees???

Mesmerizing what suits me this summer..
would i continue mah long hair stylee??






or go onto mah short hair again just like into a cut of last year?? XD..