Ei HoLD uP.. WHAT WAS THAT?.. ERRrR..

Ahhh its been awhile and too long at that, but here it is, another entry into events that seem to disturb me emotionally, i shouldnt be writitng this stuff as em prob being looked at or something, who knows huh? anyway here we go so if your not already sitting please do take a seat and get yourself comfortable...lets go, where to start? hahaha so lost but thats just me requiring a map, its just funny how sometimes little actions kick off something you cant stop and have no control over, I dislike being who i am at the moment, em well angry at myself so my general mood is slowly turning for the worst once more, we all have our ups and downs but this is too much, I have felt ergh pathetic in the past but now this is something new, i feel small, insignificant and alone, my voice isnt being heard partly due to the fact that em struggling to find the words and also when i do find them theyre out of place and have no relevance to what was being said prior to me having opened up, thats all nice and well and it happens but just the fact that I dont seem to be able to cope with something, last nite i was scared for my own safety, i had a strange feeling i was going to get into a lot of trouble real quick for something i did not do or start, i guess just me being there upset afew people, ahh sucks soo bad, but ultimately i did not manage to do what i set out to do because its not conventional, i have thought it through and em in a postion where i can lose alot more than i could gain so its best i sit down shut up and pretend all is well, prob should think about closing my eyes too, it all just gets to me and this month, well last month too i have been struggling to stay focused and on top, I was doing great prior to the whole ordeal but now like I said em struggling to gather my composure, working hard to put everything together and gain hold of who i em and not continue to be distracted, maybe my purpose here in this life is to act as someone on the recieveing end of peoples unhappines so they offload shit onto me to ultimately feel better about themselves, maybe...i shall ponder this some more and if it all makes sense well, we can fix all this.. maybe i nid to take a rest and breathe into a fresh air agen.. usin' this crappy odd paper to move destinations.. XD

hollaback, gypsy gurL wud be outtah headin' to another place in time XD..

BeSt YaYa yUL ever have...

oLa senyora y senyor.. ehehe.. i haven't posted any entry for the past few days coz' of LAZiNESS.. lol.. so ir em i infront of mah LCD agen.. tryin to jott down things i wanna blog.. and *puff* an idea came along.. i saw this pic with mah yaya Ely on mah cam.. XD

Hey em juz missin them so much :'(..
Due to mah stay ir in manila.. cant bring yaya Ely wid me cause she's assigned to work and even guide mah 2 brothers back home to pangasinan.. huhuhu..


juz a tribute to mah yaya Ely.. she's so nice and bubbly all the time.. its been 9 years she's still wid us and havin some patience wid the attitude of mah two rediculous brothers.. em so happy she's enduring our insanity for sometimes.. lol.. she had witnessed alot of mah happenings in life.. my dramas, flaws and even some of mah embarassin' moments.. sometimes, she'll bought some stuffs for me, even if its not costly, the thouhgt persue means alot to me.. XD
okay i admit.. there are times that she's annoying but it compliments all the stuff she had done for us.. there are no dull moments wid her.. i really mean that one.. hahaha.. she'll laugh all things even if she doesn't understand..

Patience is a V I R T U E..

howdy yah all people?.. if yuL gonna ask how am i?.. fuckinly tired!!..
juz went through a tiring registration and membership application foh mah profession as a registered nurse foh da past two days..

first day [registration foh mah license @ PRC main]
the crowds are humongous.. prc main was dominated by a population of a newly registered nurses who were scheduled for a registration and i was one of them.. XD
its really tiring.. and em sick and tired lining up..

lines.. lines.. and another lines.. haizt..

second day [membership for PNA]
dis is a sacrifice ever.. i sleep over mah friend's pad just to reach PNA on time.. geez, tanx to jhamere, they welcomed me in their unit with arms wide open.. XD..
mah clock striked 2:00am.. i snoozed it.. 2:30am *alarm* and i snoozed it again.. lol..
em still tired from PRC's registration thingy then here it goes again another bugging moment..
3:00am *alarm* and jhomz fully wake me up.. XD.. i rushed bathin' and dressin up..
then jhomz accompanied me goin to mini stop to buy some refreshments.. after that jhomz got me a cab..


when i reached PNA.. i was shocked because there was a line already infront of the gate though its just like 3:30am.. whattaheck!!... lines starts to grow until it circumnavigate the parameter of PNA.. lol.. thats alot.. XD.. we were entertained by 8:00am.. haizt, so if yu really dont have some of the so called PATIENCE then yu wont survive this event.. luckily, i still have.. XD

la rupture de mon coeur .. XD

comment puis-je reparer un cœur brise?..mon monde entier a echoue.
comment puis-je trouver de l'espoir d'un jour nouveau, quand celui que l'amour a disparu?
mon esprit deborde de souvenirs de vous, de tout ce que nous avons partagé, tout ce que nous savions..j'attends vos contact et votre étreinte chaleureuse, le regard dans tes yeux, le sourire sur votre visage.. mes reves sont remplis de votre doux baiser doux, je me réveille et je crie tout ce qui me manque.. comment puis-je reparer un cœur brise, quand mon seul veritable amour et moi nous sommes separes?.. mon cœur sait aimer que toi, il va pas lacher, que dois-je faire?.. nos moments ensemble etaient precieux et rares, mais je chéris eux tous plus que vous ne le savait.. je t'aime mon ange et sera toujours,
mais cela a change, vous êtes juste un souvenir et je tombe a quelqu'un d'autre.. XD
au revoir, jus que-la!!.. ahahay..

Shortees or Longees???

Mesmerizing what suits me this summer..
would i continue mah long hair stylee??






or go onto mah short hair again just like into a cut of last year?? XD..

huh? what? SHiT!!! oha oha!! iMBA!!..

well well well, another day and well another entry into the world of Meimei, which is odd, if you wanted to see inside my head just stare into my eyes or something and you should see inside, hopefully, maybe not but thats not the point, point is DAMMIT STUPID RULES HOLDING ME BACK *sniff sniff*..

anyway just here signing stuffs, well writing stuffs, anyway all is well other than a slight headache, and oh the thoughts hurt me ever sooo bad, ouchies, lol me and complaining go hand in hand apparently but if you guys only knew what buzzes round inside my head you guys would feel a strange sensation called fear or something but enough is enough..

bit dissapointed and yeah nothing to worry about I guess.. my friends just called instructin me to go to PRC but then after i finished dressin up and havin a rid in a cab.. *beep* message received: dont bother to go anymore, tickets are sold out for the oath takin and yur registration was sched tomorrow.. oh well, whatta shit!.. after receivin that text, i told the driver to just turn left and head me to mah pad cause em not goin any further..

hmm think thats all I had to ramble on about today so off i go, till next time have fun and take care..

whatta V day!!..

First time EVER!!.. mah Vday is a total wrecker.. haizt..
Okay so here goes the story of mah boring Vday: i woke-up like it was 1:30pm already.. lol.. yeah 'coz i stayed up sooo late.. ahah.. i plunged into mah bed resting all day..

boring.boring.boring

random text msgs came beepin into mah phone.. greeting me a happy vday, hearts day, etc.. how can dey exactly great me that way when infact its not a HAPPY vday after all..
one thing that add-up to mah agony, he didnt greet me!.. oha!.. thats darn shit!..

The gift im proud of!!

oh yeah! em back again.. just wanna share this simple gift i've ever received.. the story goes like this: upon graduating college, my uncle promised me something.. that is to give me a gift il be soo happy with.. and that is my own graduation ring.. uhuh, its a gold ring with my school and course engraved on it..

before, i was so afraid to put into thinkin that the board exam results are not yet published.. i got this feelin that em not yet ready.. its like em not yet worth it to wear this accessory, i was like JUST a graduate nurse and not yet a registered, oha oha..

until came the night of my spot.. inquirer.net published the results first.. i was kinda nerve freak!.. well, that's the feelin of every graduate nurse had experienced during that night.. dhu who doesn't anyway.. ahaha..

alas! i told mah self that em super happy i could be boorish enough to wear and be proud of it!.. geez, tanx to my uncle who gave it to me.. ehehe..
its one of my graduation gift worth to be proud of!.. hakhak..

blah blah blah.. .. ..

well another weekend come and now almost gone and what a weekend, full of drama and confusion, not without its ups though..
my psp game collection slowly grows and while em out spending money and being subjected to a whole lot of confusion there are those that i see who tend to stand by me when the going gets tough, just hard to see that they do care..

hmm how could it have all gone so wrong and why? might be my own fault for being me or I dunno could be just my good luck kicking in once more, never mind all is well on the outside so thats still a good sign, and now onto ghosts, do they exist? who knows for sure huh? I dont want to say i believe in them but Im afraid to say i dont, and well for the sceptics there is a simple test that can apparently prove they do exist.. although part of me says yeah do it, theres nothing to be scared of but if they do exist how would I be able to sleep at night knowing em being haunted by real live (or dead) ghosties XD..

hmm drama drama drama, tired, no patience and Im out. People tend to make out everything to be my fault for some reason or another regardless of wether em even present at the time.. I guess people need someone to blame and seeing as people do know me i guess they figure they can just blame me because i us tend to shut up and take it all without arguing...maybe because of that it does make it my fault, oh well too bad guess maybe i should just take it all and hope for the best.. XD

On another note em trying to convince, nah thats not the correct word, em trying to deliver a subliminal message to people, this message is that: its offensive to call someone skinny, I mean its bad when you call someone fat , why isnt it bad when you tell someone that they are skinny?.. its pretty much the same thing when you think about it.. does it?..

Oh yeah and exciting news from toyota...oh wait thats just a silly ad, but I do have exciting news, I got something i needed to get me somewhere in this world and not only that but i can officially help people now. sounds suss but if you wish to unmask the suss-ness just ask what exciting news i have and il be happy to tell you, anyways Im off to see how much time I can waste doing nothing that matters. Peace, Love and Unity..

the Gypsy Gurl is outtha once more!..

toodles..

New Addiction

Im into blogging AGAIN. ahahah. my eyes are killin me!!.. im like 5 hours doin some renovations over mah blog page. LOL.. Anyways, watch out for more details to be posted!.. ahahaha.. I should be outtha ir by now or else i get scolded again over the internet addiction.. bwahahahah

thats for now...

stay-tuned for more... hehehe

peace, love, and unity!!!

rock-on...

the gypsy gurl is now OFF.. toodles!!..

inaguration to BLOGGER..

wooowoott!

its been how many years since i had posted!! ..
and TADAN!! it took me just now to update my blog.

A lot of juicy events had happened to me during the times i wasn’t able to blogged my up-to-date journal about life hakhak aha…

I don't know where to start this heart to heart kinda thing to say... Uhm, board exam is freaky in vain...

well let’s start with my passage, i just then graduated last april of 2009 and em happy that ive graduated with a flyin colors all around me but i hope everyone was there to attend :( hakhak..

so far.. from bein post graduate i’m still unemployed hakhak.. its really humiliating, i cant even be productive on my own..

i tried to hunt for a job im suited to.. MEDICAL TRANSCRIPTIONIST, PRIVATE NURSE and even HEALTH CARE ASSOCIATE.. passing of resume is tough, the agony juz sucks..

one day, i received a phone call from phil transco.. i was with my mom that day goin shoppin in Nepo Mall(PANGASINAN).. mah mom just listened to our conversation, hay but when the call ended she then suddenly told me to quit it.. i said "sayang mama :(".. that was july and she's worried because if i started workin i wont be able to review for mah board exam.. Phil transco offered a position as a Medical Transcriptionist with a monthly salary of 25k/month.. darn!!.. such a lost!!.. i even cried a river back then..


My life grew a bit boring and i just did spend my time to and fro (manila-pangasinan).. galavanting with my friends, and doin stupid things with myself.. I find those things unsatisfying hakhak..

so i just kept myself busy doing small things w/c are a bit productive i guess.. Until my review session started last SEPT. 9.. graciously, i was able to utilize my time with a purpose of: to pass or top the BOARD EXAM!!..

Kso my mga ilang bgy na pnagkaabalahan aq besides that na dq alam if its worth my time well kung d nmn ed keberlooo nlng,gnun lng tlg, ahahha.. [em pertaining to goin online to uzzap even if i had mah review]

For now after a dreadful waiting of the result it yields an outcome that i am proud of.

JANUARY 31, 2009!!..

@12:00am =i was at the couch infront of mah lappy waiting for the result.. ahaha em juz a bit excited.. lol.. and i saw my friends gone online too.. ahaha.. such a ridiciulous act.. its like midnight and impossible for PRC to post that late..

@4:00am= still i cant sleep lookin and surfin over the net.. ahahhaa..

@5:30am= darn, mah hormones are at risk.. its in a peril state so i was a bit sleepy already.. ahaha..

@1:00pm= too late for lunch.. ahahaha.. i woke up and changed clothes then without even done mah oral hygiene first! i opened mah lappy and log onto PRC's site.. still result not found.. hahaha..

luckily, atyy. luansing(one of my mentors) posted a shout on fB stating that 10pm wil be the official release of the exam result..

by 6:00pm i decided to go to MANAOAG CHURCH with my cousin.. i prayed and even cried even if there's alot of people surrounding me infornt of the altar.. the agony was really at its peak!!.. OMG!!.. when we reached home i even prayed the rosary..




then after a long wait 10:00pm came!!!


mah nerve startin to freak out!!.. i felt numb and mah hand are shivering!!..
the long wait is over!!.. the RESULTS are finally out..


my brother (KEN) told me to log into inquirer.net and go search into my name..
i said i think i can't.. deeply, i inhaled and exhaled.. with a teary eye, i started to key-in I N Q U I R E R . N E T on mah keyboard..

poof* CONFIRMED: the results are out..

then i typed mah last name on the search bar: A T E N D i D O..
blood rushed into mah vien as i look very clearly on mah LCD..
and i saw 3269 ATENDIDO MARY DIANA PRANDA..

momentously i became a statue then recovering from the event, i shouted out REGISTERED NURSE NA KO!!!..

that was a JOB WELL DONE!!.. darn.. em so thankful that i NAILED IT!!.. one SHOT and i passed!! yeaahbah!..



thats for now...

stay-tuned for more... hehehe

peace, love, and unity!!!

rock-on...

the gypsy gurl is now OFF.. toodles!!..